Hi. I'm gonna post about how boring the SYF preparations are and the DSA applications I'm going to send in soon.
Firstly, we have been preparing segments of the SYF dance for quite a number of months already... Well...Its been only 2 to 3 months but doing the same thing over and over again like a pre-programed machine is attached with a horrible feeling. In this dance, I'm quite lucky the choreographer quite likes me so he gave me several leads and a position as one of the main dancers. The dance is only 5 minutes and 35 seconds but it seems like forever. Especially when the entire piece seems the same to me. So far we have only left with 1 minute left. But the beat is so fast that without running, it seems almost impossible to make it on time.
Secondly, I think I did mention that my studies are fantastically horrible. So. I'm going to try to apply for a Junior College(JC) through the Direct School Admission(DSA) program. Frankly, from my perspective, Dance is my ticket through school. I've used it to go into a prestigious secondary school that accepts only scholars or affiliated students. Since I am definitely not in either category, dance is the only way for me. Fortunately the school accepts talented performers, and they decided to give me a try.
Therefore, I will try to pull that stunt again. It may not work but it will be a good try. I'm quite interested in either CJC or SAJC. The former is because its a catholic school.Being in an Anglican school makes me feel like fish out of water... The latter is because my father says it usually performs for the MOE events and the ballet program there is supposedly good. I hope I'll get into a school. There will be plenty applying but I hope God passes me some of his good graces.
What will be, will be. But I want to have control over my future.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Saturday, December 27, 2008
2009 Fears and Worries
Not sure what I should really post about but Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone!
I just woke up from a really disturbing dream so I'm feeling rather lethargic and detached from my surroundings. I'd think I'll do a little write up on my fears and worries as well as hopes for next year.
Next Year is the Huge O levels exam yet I cant believe that I feel so relaxed as am not event trying to complete my holiday Homework. I just cant kick this lazy habit of mine. I've tried to get rid of it but it always worms itself back in. I really want to be on top of myself(I dont noe how to phrase it so..) and give it my best shot but I need to thrash this evil deed of mine.
I'm also facing a grade 7 ballet exam in April or May. I'm rather worried about not being able to qualify for the exam as recently, Ms Kok had become pregnant and the class has had a new teacher that does not know how to teach and confuses us so much that I can stick my head in a whirlpool and still feel fine. The quality of my dance is not improving and I can hardly catch my steps so I'm so dead when Ms Kok comes back. I may not even take the exam....
At school I am still in the mist of preparing for the upcoming SYF(Singapore Youth Festival). I really hope to nail solos and be no 1 in the whole dance group but I also want to leave behind a legacy or sth. Something that when people look at my name and they will go"Hey, isn't that the girl who...here?" I really hope to receive the Caroline Lee trophy but I dont think I'm in the line up...
At church, I will have my confirmation on May 30th. That is if I pass the test. I'm not really sure if this is what I want, but then again, I cant back out of it and I really do like going to church with my friends. Not because of the camaraderie or the lack of two annoying noisy brothers, but I can finally be myself around them. Then again,I'm not really sure who I really am. I have so many social masks that it is beginning to tire me out. Quiet and anti social at school, open and daring at ballet, innocent and a nut who thinks blutack is cute for church, and so on and so on. I sometimes wonder if too many masks, makes my lose the actual essence of my very own character, and makes me similar to the devil...
More fears and worries, but I don't think I write it out, but I do hope to spend more time with my friends. They may not be close but they make me really happy. Its all in the attention. Attention makes me happy.
I just woke up from a really disturbing dream so I'm feeling rather lethargic and detached from my surroundings. I'd think I'll do a little write up on my fears and worries as well as hopes for next year.
Next Year is the Huge O levels exam yet I cant believe that I feel so relaxed as am not event trying to complete my holiday Homework. I just cant kick this lazy habit of mine. I've tried to get rid of it but it always worms itself back in. I really want to be on top of myself(I dont noe how to phrase it so..) and give it my best shot but I need to thrash this evil deed of mine.
I'm also facing a grade 7 ballet exam in April or May. I'm rather worried about not being able to qualify for the exam as recently, Ms Kok had become pregnant and the class has had a new teacher that does not know how to teach and confuses us so much that I can stick my head in a whirlpool and still feel fine. The quality of my dance is not improving and I can hardly catch my steps so I'm so dead when Ms Kok comes back. I may not even take the exam....
At school I am still in the mist of preparing for the upcoming SYF(Singapore Youth Festival). I really hope to nail solos and be no 1 in the whole dance group but I also want to leave behind a legacy or sth. Something that when people look at my name and they will go"Hey, isn't that the girl who...here?" I really hope to receive the Caroline Lee trophy but I dont think I'm in the line up...
At church, I will have my confirmation on May 30th. That is if I pass the test. I'm not really sure if this is what I want, but then again, I cant back out of it and I really do like going to church with my friends. Not because of the camaraderie or the lack of two annoying noisy brothers, but I can finally be myself around them. Then again,I'm not really sure who I really am. I have so many social masks that it is beginning to tire me out. Quiet and anti social at school, open and daring at ballet, innocent and a nut who thinks blutack is cute for church, and so on and so on. I sometimes wonder if too many masks, makes my lose the actual essence of my very own character, and makes me similar to the devil...
More fears and worries, but I don't think I write it out, but I do hope to spend more time with my friends. They may not be close but they make me really happy. Its all in the attention. Attention makes me happy.
Monday, December 15, 2008
No control
Hi I'm back. I'm aching in my thighs.I can't control my right hand.
Welcome to the world of Dance.
I just had my first full day practice for SYF in school. This is also the 3rd time we have seen Mr. Soh, the choreographer. Not that I'm complaining but the dance is really tiring and fast paced. Ther is almost no time to take a single gasp of breath of chill for a moment.
Mr. Soh commented that the dance was only one third completed yet we sounded like we were -I quote-"having an asthma attack". I mean I think he is actually rather cool but strict and determined to get what he wanted. And he shouts real loud, I mean his voice was booming. Some girls told me that info from their friends said that Mr. Soh once threw a chair at some girls.
I met my targets I set for myself today, but I didn't really like the outcome. I was hoping that I would get noticed and I did. He gave me a solo piece in the dance. It was quite simple but it was on my weaker leg.Pique turn, pique turn and double pique turn. then I had to do a back bend and kick my left leg to kiss it. It seems rather simple but try it with the music and some may faint.(LOL) Yay! I finally got a solo!
At nearing the end of the dance, I lost control of my right arm and couldn't hit the right beats. I got a huge scolding but it really is't my fault my right hand is weak.I'm a LEFT HANDER!!!! Can't expect me to be so strong when my arms are so thin...!
Anyway I'm dead tired and am having a flu. BUt still dancing.Haha. Good nite!
Welcome to the world of Dance.
I just had my first full day practice for SYF in school. This is also the 3rd time we have seen Mr. Soh, the choreographer. Not that I'm complaining but the dance is really tiring and fast paced. Ther is almost no time to take a single gasp of breath of chill for a moment.
Mr. Soh commented that the dance was only one third completed yet we sounded like we were -I quote-"having an asthma attack". I mean I think he is actually rather cool but strict and determined to get what he wanted. And he shouts real loud, I mean his voice was booming. Some girls told me that info from their friends said that Mr. Soh once threw a chair at some girls.
I met my targets I set for myself today, but I didn't really like the outcome. I was hoping that I would get noticed and I did. He gave me a solo piece in the dance. It was quite simple but it was on my weaker leg.Pique turn, pique turn and double pique turn. then I had to do a back bend and kick my left leg to kiss it. It seems rather simple but try it with the music and some may faint.(LOL) Yay! I finally got a solo!
At nearing the end of the dance, I lost control of my right arm and couldn't hit the right beats. I got a huge scolding but it really is't my fault my right hand is weak.I'm a LEFT HANDER!!!! Can't expect me to be so strong when my arms are so thin...!
Anyway I'm dead tired and am having a flu. BUt still dancing.Haha. Good nite!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Quiz 2
1. Do you have secrets?
yep.But if your trying to pry, try the back door.
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
Why would I answer that?! It would be GAME OVER.
3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Only when I'm with friends talking about frivolous stuff.
4. What will you do with a billion dollars?
Shop till I drop.
5. Who in this world you hate most?
Easy. The devil.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone but I'd rather say, self-love.
7. List out your fifteen favorite songs
(In random order)
-Teardrops on my Guitar by Taylor Swift
-Love Story by Taylor Swift
-Just Dance by Lady Gaga
-Love Song by Sara bareilles
-Crush by David Archuleta
-SOS by Jonas Brothers
-A little bit longer by Jonas Brothers
-Play my music by Jonas Brothers
-Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou by JJ Lin
-Dangerous by Roxette
-Who Knew by Pink
-So What by Pink
-A moment like this by Leona Lewis
-Foot prints in the sand by Leona Lewis
-Get Back by Demi Lovato
8. If the person you like is already attached, what would you do?
Forget him. Brain wash myself.
9. Is there anything that made you extremely happy?
Candy and attention.
10. What makes you angry?
Late-ness.
11. How would see yourself in 10 years time?
Dead.
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
God and God.
13. What is the most important thing in life?
Living life to the fullest.
14. Single or attached?With who?
Single.Obviously.
15. What is your favorite colour?
No favorites.
16. Would you give in all in a relationship?As in what type?
I don't really care cos as far as I know I have never ever been in a relationship.
17. If you fall in love with two people sitmultaneously,who would you pick?
Neither. Becuz its not love. Its infatuation.
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Yes.
19. What do you want to tell to the someone you like?
You wanna go out?
20. 5 people i have tagged to do.
I cant tag Mav cuz she tagged me first. So Daniel, Andrew, Cheryl,Jillian and Honeybee.
yep.But if your trying to pry, try the back door.
2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
Why would I answer that?! It would be GAME OVER.
3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Only when I'm with friends talking about frivolous stuff.
4. What will you do with a billion dollars?
Shop till I drop.
5. Who in this world you hate most?
Easy. The devil.
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone but I'd rather say, self-love.
7. List out your fifteen favorite songs
(In random order)
-Teardrops on my Guitar by Taylor Swift
-Love Story by Taylor Swift
-Just Dance by Lady Gaga
-Love Song by Sara bareilles
-Crush by David Archuleta
-SOS by Jonas Brothers
-A little bit longer by Jonas Brothers
-Play my music by Jonas Brothers
-Yi Qian Nian Yi Hou by JJ Lin
-Dangerous by Roxette
-Who Knew by Pink
-So What by Pink
-A moment like this by Leona Lewis
-Foot prints in the sand by Leona Lewis
-Get Back by Demi Lovato
8. If the person you like is already attached, what would you do?
Forget him. Brain wash myself.
9. Is there anything that made you extremely happy?
Candy and attention.
10. What makes you angry?
Late-ness.
11. How would see yourself in 10 years time?
Dead.
12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
God and God.
13. What is the most important thing in life?
Living life to the fullest.
14. Single or attached?With who?
Single.Obviously.
15. What is your favorite colour?
No favorites.
16. Would you give in all in a relationship?As in what type?
I don't really care cos as far as I know I have never ever been in a relationship.
17. If you fall in love with two people sitmultaneously,who would you pick?
Neither. Becuz its not love. Its infatuation.
18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Yes.
19. What do you want to tell to the someone you like?
You wanna go out?
20. 5 people i have tagged to do.
I cant tag Mav cuz she tagged me first. So Daniel, Andrew, Cheryl,Jillian and Honeybee.
I cant believe I'm back but I am back
I cant believe I'm back but I am back. Funnily though I thought spending long afternoons and early nights in bed was a waste of time but I really miss it. I've been back for about four days but haven't the encouragement to post a write-up.
I went for my first ballet lesson the day after I came back. Boy was I in poor shape! Not that I forgot the exercises or couldn't do a double pirouette but I didn't have the stamina and I gained hell lot of weight!! I put on like what 4 kg??? I am officially a baby elephant! Worse still, its like my chest an immunity against fat! Come on! 4 kg and I'm still without a chest.
Oh the other day, Claire was at Paul's house and she used his account to prank on me. Well, actually both of them "pit forces" against me. Claire certainly has changed quite a bit after she nailed a boyfriend. I wonder when Mavis and Angeline will get their very own prince. I really doubt that I would really get a long term relationship. I've met quite a number of guys, went out with them but it was always not right. Some would say its not right to look for love now but I take it as a distraction from reality.
I'm not going to beat myself today... I'll save it for another time ,just before I go into depression. Cheerios.
I went for my first ballet lesson the day after I came back. Boy was I in poor shape! Not that I forgot the exercises or couldn't do a double pirouette but I didn't have the stamina and I gained hell lot of weight!! I put on like what 4 kg??? I am officially a baby elephant! Worse still, its like my chest an immunity against fat! Come on! 4 kg and I'm still without a chest.
Oh the other day, Claire was at Paul's house and she used his account to prank on me. Well, actually both of them "pit forces" against me. Claire certainly has changed quite a bit after she nailed a boyfriend. I wonder when Mavis and Angeline will get their very own prince. I really doubt that I would really get a long term relationship. I've met quite a number of guys, went out with them but it was always not right. Some would say its not right to look for love now but I take it as a distraction from reality.
I'm not going to beat myself today... I'll save it for another time ,just before I go into depression. Cheerios.
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